Just another day...

Well, here it is Friday and I've completed my Accounting homework and my Macroeconomics homework. Nothing really else to do. I can't believe in less than two months, I will be 28. I never believed I would ever be this old. ehh. Sitting here thinking of something to write and I remember how I used to blog ALL the time. Now, nothing runs through my mind. I guess with age I've even bored myself. But even with that thought in my mind, I do realize how much I've changed over the years. I used to never stand up for myself or speak my opinion much. I feel I do that a lot now. I've even grown to know what responsibilities are. My parents had hell beating that one into me. lol. I think the biggest thing change about me is, that I've learned to stand on my own two feet. I was always used to leaning against people. Kayla my best friend since kindergarten till 12th grade. And Neil, who still is my best friend. When me and him first became friends I leaned on him. Two years into our friendship, we had a fall out and that was when I had to learn to pick myself up and walk alone. I had never had to do that. I was alone and scared out of my mind. But as the time went on it was easier. At times today, I still get a little weak in the knees, but I manage.

Misses lonely....

All around me it seems as if though people are having babies, married, or both. I'm 27 and in 8 months I will be 28. Still lonely. I hate being this way. There is one guy I like. He knows it and everyone around me and him know it. He just moved back to Waco from Yantis. Which is three hours away. We used to talk a lot. But it seems here in the last three weeks it's been hardly. I'm sure that means he is talking to someone else. That is what it used to mean back in the day. I dunno. I'm so tired of putting myself out there. I'm tired of waiting around to see what is going to happen next. I'd say something, but I don't want to and then get told..uummm, I don't see us this way, I just see us as friends. Which I know no one wants to hear. I dunno.